Like most kids, my first (remembered) fear was of the dark. So, I kept the closet door cracked, with the light blaring in my eyes. It didn’t take me long to realize there was a monster living in the closet and the light just made it easier for the him, her, okay it, to move around. I imagined waking in the middle of the night, my closet door wide open, (instead of cracked like I left it) light streaming into my bedroom, except where a dark shadow covered my prone and defenseless body.
As I grew older my fears changed. Yep, that’s right a whole new bundle of fears cropped up. The fear of not having any friends. (I didn’t have many) The fear of being alone. The fear of being near someone. (Yeah. I had it bad) The fear of not being liked. The fear of being ignored. The fear of being different. The fear of being too smart or too dumb. Fear of being poor. Yeah. I was in high school.
Fast forward to being a full-grown adult. The dark no longer causes me fear. I know there’s no such things as monsters, which saddens me. I have friends. True friends. I don’t care who likes me or not. (I say this, but yeah, I kinda sorta still worry) Most importantly I embrace my differentness. (I just made that word up) I prefer different. Different is fun! It’s awesome. Normal is ‘shudder.’
So what scares me now? Oh I still have fears, we all do. Fear of failure. Fear of success. Fear of not being able to pay my bills. (Buy my books) These are fears I am working on defeating, with a positive attitude and belief. I will put these fears aside and I am focusing on all the good. On being happy. Everyone should focus on the positive, on the good, and on what makes them happy.
Try for a few days, I bet you’ll feel better.
Be true to yourself.
